You hear so much good about the human race. We've developed all kinds of things, from telephones to flying cars. We've got minds that are beyond any other creature on this earth. We write books, we make movies, we eradicate sicknesses that have killed millions before us. But you know what else we've done? Screwed up. We might have found new sources of energy, but we're making holes in the atmosphere while we're at it. In our history, we have killed billions, if not trillions of our own kind in needless wars. We've torn down forests and poisoned oceans, things that God gave to us not only for their beauty, but for what they could offer us. And let's not forget that the very core of our existence has been torn apart--our families. We have made love worthless, and as a result love is treated like disposable wipes. Once we're done, we throw it away. (But did you know most so-called 'disposable things aren't really disposable? Do some research if you don't believe me.)
Now, just so you know, I'm not about to go on some environmentalist wacko rant. I'm not saying that humans should be eradicated from the face of the earth! If I were saying that, I'd be saying that I should die! Not to mention I'd be a traitor to my own kind. >_> I mean, God did put us here for a reason. But that reason was not to destroy. Yes, we were made to have dominion over this planet, but dominion comes with responsibilities. We're supposed to take care of what God has given us. I believe it was Teddy Roosevelt who said that we should preserve the environment for future generations (see, public schoolers? I am learning something!). We should not waste what God has given us.
(Look at where this post has gone. I didn't mean to talk about the environment! Whoo-hoo! Three cheers for ranting!)
My point is, that the one thing us humans seem to be good at is screwing things up. Every time we try to take something into our own hands, it falls apart. I can testify to that wholeheartedly. I have tried so many times to throw God out of the equation and deal with something myself--because I'm too proud to really ask for His help. I want to do it on my own. But the problem is, that I can't do much on my own. Except screw up, of course. If I wanted to, I could tell you about screw-ups of astronomical proportions that came from these two hands of mine. I've lost friends, I've made my parents mad at me, I've ruined my reputation as a Christian to my neighbors. Goodness gosh, am I good at royally screwing things up eight ways to Sunday. You have no idea.
When I first thought of writing this post, I was in a very depressed mood. The song that played in my head like a mantra was Relient K's Devastation and Reform: "I feel like I was born for devastation and reform, destroying everything I love and the worst part is: I pull my heart out, reconstruct; but in the end there's nothing but a shell of what I had when I first started." Why? Well, let's just say that I made one of my best friends a little angry with me because I lied to her and was keeping secrets. Not only that, but this little secret was something I was doing that my parents had forbidden me to do. (And no, I'm not going to tell you what it was. So there.) I felt so lost, and more than once I wondered, "God, what am I doing here? Surely you don't have any use for someone who does nothing but screw up!" And let me tell you right now, I was more depressed than I've been in a long time.
I'm not going to tell you that I had this revelation somewhere deep in my soul right when I said that. It took a couple of days for me to find the answer to my question. Truthfully, it's probably because I was too afraid to talk to God because I thought He'd be mad at me just like everyone else (in fact, I have yet to talk to Him about it)! But you know what I realized? I realized that humans have been screwing up since the beginning. Every time we get away from God and start presuming that we can do it on our own, we screw up. That's just God's little reminder that we're not perfect, and consequently, we need Him!
So. Now that I'm finished writing this, I'm going to have a one on one with my Lord and Savior, and YOU are going to add your reactions and possibly a comment. Oh, and listen to this song. ^_^
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